Full-Blown Pain: A Personal Struggle With the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headaches

It was a overcast Monday in the morning in September 2016. I was working as a educator, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sudden sensation erupted behind my right eye. Then came rapid shocks, reminiscent of electric shocks. As each class came and went, the pain subsided and then came back with increased force. Four times that day I left a teaching assistant with activities and hurried to the school bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I tried ibuprofen, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The attacks returned repeatedly that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. The autumn months were the most severe, then February and March. I could predict the pattern: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the commute, full-blown pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In late 2019, a GP eventually sent me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches typically begin with intense pain behind a single eye that persists for three hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 people are affected by the disorder, and males are more frequently diagnosed. Attacks usually start with abrupt, excruciating pain around a single eye that reaches its peak within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or face perspiration. I have the episodic form, which arrives in seasonal bouts; others have chronic attacks, defined by the lack of extended pain-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the severity. One study scored the pain at 9.7 10, higher than bone fractures or pancreatitis. A separate discovered 64% of cluster headache patients experienced suicidal thoughts during attacks; the figure dropped to 4% when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, 74, a chronic sufferer from Wales, isn't surprised. Her attacks started when she was two. “I would throw myself on the floor and hit my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Drinking in her teens, like several causes, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she recalls barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often interpreted her episodes as drunken behavior. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after relocating, but often hid her condition. She was fired from one job, in part due to absences during episodes. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center.

Still, the failure to plan daily activities around unpredictable pain took its effect. She particularly hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the small freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The earliest description of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write authors in a publication on the subject. They attributed the disease to an malevolent entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Historical healing records propose bizarre remedies for what some experts would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, migraine was identified as a separate condition, with treatments ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the first detailed account of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache happening and disappearing daily at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally classified by international medical committees in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a key artery that delivers blood to the head. Leading experts in treating the disorder note this.

In 1998, researchers published the findings of a research project for which they had triggered attacks in patients and observed the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, featured in a major journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they felt better.

In spite of such progress, identification remains slow. One man's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent multiple operations before finally being diagnosed in 2014, after a doctor looked up his complaints.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosing and managing happen because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're tired and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by ruling out other primary headache disorders, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing the disorder. A detailed patient history is essential: on which part of the head do signs occur? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Certain characteristics such as redness, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to specialist clinics. But many first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate therapies.

A charity trustee, 78, has suffered from the condition for the majority of her life, although she hasn't had an episode since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars pulled because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She thinks dentists still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who responded. I remember calling a support line during an bout in 2021; a calm volunteer guided them through oxygen treatment and medication until the episode eased.

National guidance on treatment recommend that patients are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a anti-migraine drug delivered by injection. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Preventive options include verapamil, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of well-known people.

But leading specialists believe the guidance need revising to reflect a more defined treatment pathway and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is everything: “The duration of the cycle determines the approach.” Brief cycles with infrequent episodes are managed with abortive treatment alone. Longer or more severe periods require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an procedure into the area of the skull where the discomfort is that decreases nerve activity.

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Shelby Buck
Shelby Buck

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